Twenty Something

Twenty-something. These are the ages of fear, insecurity, overthinking, depression, heartbreak, loss.. but also full of joy, happiness, and blessing.

You tried things and you failed. You got something you don’t like. You put your best effort to get something you want, but it was still not good enough. You got something you wanted so bad when you’ve already let it go years ago. You got something unexpected, good and bad. You built your dream, but it’s crumbled. You did something for fun, but unexpectedly it brought you a fortune. You run and stumble. You rose again but fell into a dark pit. You stuck for a long time and gave up. After some time, you decide to retry.

I wonder why people like to play roller coasters while life is the roller coaster itself. They find it’s fun, but I don’t see it’s fun at all.
For most people, living this decade is frustrating because you and your surroundings put high expectations on you. They expect you to have great careers, wealth, houses, cars, spouses, and children at the same time. It doesn’t make sense right? Even Bandung Bondowoso failed to build 1000 temples with some spiritual assistance.

But at the very end of twenty-something, I finally learned to overcome those insecurities. I’m aware that each person has his/her timing, talent, purpose, and preference. People have their definition of success and their timeline. It’s when it is supposed to be.

Whatever and whoever’s meant to be yours, will be always yours. Likewise, whatever and whoever is not destined to you will be taken back in any way. If it’s not now, perhaps it’s in the future.